Over the past few months, I have been trying to come to terms with the concept of letting go of the reigns of life and becoming one with the flow of the Universe. I am pretty successful at relaxing my grip when it comes to acute stressors. I close my eyes if possible, or else I just use my Third Eye, and visualize that I’m an orange buoy floating in the ocean. I visualize letting go of resistance and letting myself bop around in the waves… the waves are choppy, but by surrendering they pass gently under me. I visualize letting go. I breathe letting go. And usually, I can feel the letting go as a release of tension in my chest and as the slowing down of my heart rate, which in turn tends to help the feelings of anxiety and stress float away. While this visualization is comforting in day-to-day situations and calamities, it doesn’t do much when I try to apply it to more general, long-term thoughts about my life.
I’m a pretty laid back person. It takes a lot for me to get worked up and I actively try not to sweat the small stuff… some might even say that I’m a bit of a hippie. While this may be generally true, there’s also an A-type side to my personality. In the “default world,” I live in the competitive realm of academia where “publish or perish” is the reality of day-to-day life. I didn’t get to where I am without a lot of drive and hard work. So, I have had a hard time resonating with the idea of “letting go of the reigns” because I think I associate it with becoming complacent and giving up my ambitions. Plus, I also strongly believe in the power of manifestation – how can I let go if I believe… no, I know… that we all can, and do, manifest our thoughts and desires?!?! Needless to say, I’ve been having trouble reconciling all of this in my heart and mind.
Two nights ago, while out for dinner and a drink, I heard a really interesting perspective on connecting with the flow of the Universe which made me have a bit of an “a-ha” moment. Play along with me. Visualize that you are a boat floating along in the river. When you “let go” you are letting the current take you. As you float along, the river branches and you have opportunities to choose which streams to follow… but you are continuing to go with the flow of the river and in doing so are still letting go of the reigns. If, at some point, you find that the path you are following is offering you resistance… that you’re paddling and paddling but you’ve now begun to paddle against the current, then you’re no longer one with the flow of the river; the path you’re on isn’t in sync with the flow of the river and so you need to reassess and read your omens so that you can once again reconnect with the current. So, let go of your notions that you need to be floating down this particular stream, reconnect with your surroundings, and paddle out of the eddy so that the main current can take you once more. Life has ebs and flows, trials and tribulations, but when you’re on the right path, these teach you a lesson and then pass… but generally speaking, things line up and opportunities come up. Ok… so now here’s the kicker. Manifestation is NOT an act of control. Manifestation is an act of creation. When you manifest, you’re letting the river take you, and as you float, your thoughts are contributing to a lemonade stand popping up on the shore, or having cute bottle-nosed dolphins swim up and make you laugh so hard that water squirts out of your nose. You’re decorating your surroundings along the path that you’re being taken down. Letting go of the reigns doesn’t mean that I become complacent and a peon… I can and still do retain the power to create the reality that I want – probably even moreso since I’m not wasting my energy on paddling against the current! What a beautiful and timely realization…
“So let go, jump in
Oh well, whatcha waiting for
’cause there’s beauty in the breakdown
So let go, just get in
Oh, it’s so amazing here
’cause there’s beauty in the breakdown”
~Imogen Heap, Let Go.